Tuesday, April 28, 2009

One day in and I'm losing my mind

My diet just got kicked right in the pants

My Nurse yesterday said I couldn't eat potatoes or anything with white flour

No milk apparently

No pasta

just lots of protein

jesus christ how am I supposed to live? Hopefully my dietitian can give me more reasonable foods to eat, but fuck I don't know what Im supposed to do. My doctors don't even know why I'm alive, I could easily be dead, or in a coma. NO ONE could give me a reason why I'm not

Support is always nice, I appreciate it. But I mean in the end it's me who has to be the one who stabs myself in the thigh 4 times a day and ruins my finger tips with a glucometer.

I'm pretty convinced life hates me. I fail at school, relationships, playing bass, and now apparently I fail at food.

I think I get a deserved "Fuck my life" at this point, I just wish I knew why there appears to be a rain cloud that just hovers over me and just goes "FUCK YOU TAYLOR" *rain rain rain* "Oh hey it's sunny now!" "Really" NO FUCK YOU MORE" *lightning rain rain rain*

Fuck this

2 comments:

Zack said...

Well, you can still eat meat at least

Anonymous said...

that last part made me smile, even if it wasnt supposed to xP....
Dude I'm amazed at how you put up with all the shit that happens to you. It's amazing. Youre amazing, really (: I love you!