It's fun to post on here

Nice little outlet that isn't facebook or aim

Anyway, I still feel alone all the damn time. I dunno how many times but I've had my heart played with in more ways than I'd personally just like to admit, but it's gotten to the point where I don't know how I can open up to anyone anymore. I'm always so scared of telling someone how I feel about them, because I'm always worried of repercussions. And I'm so self-conscious about every god damn thing I say and do that I'll probably overlook any possibly person that sees anything in me because I'll be too busy worrying about myself.

So many absurd failures, missed opportunities and overlooked events. And the ones I've actually been a part of have been detrimental to my being, lol. What a world.

Back to the music, the only thing holding me together these days