what are you supposed to do

when nothing ever works the way you want it to

when no one treats you how you'd like to be treated

when people treat you like shit, and in your retaliation treat you more like shit and blame you for the whole thing?

when the person whom you have stupid amounts of feelings for wants nothing to do with you other than keeping a good friendship

I talk about how I care more about other peoples shit than my own, which is why I always put off my shit until I help with other peoples stuff first. I simply don't care about myself enough.

Yet that alone gets me in trouble, when you don't tend to yourself you forget how vulnerable you are after a while.

Hoping sleep does me well (It wont)